Empty Arms

These use to be the arms.......

that would hold you so fondly and squeeze you so tight.

They'd dance with you and tickle you and embrace you at night.

They'd comfort you and treasure you and keep you from fright.

They'd forever deeply love you, with all a mother's might.

..........and now these arms are empty. (Lenore Davis)

A slideshow of some of my favorites moments shared with Hunter. Our bond will never be broken and he'll deliver me smiles for the rest of my life. I sincerely loved him with all of my heart.

My love and devotion to Hunter leaves me breathless. My heart truly aches, my mind painfully throbs and my strength leaves me in despair. The hole in my heart and in my soul is so incredibly large, I feel as if sometimes my body just gives way and the hole just swallows me up for what seems like days.......days full of emptiness that never seem to end. I feel as if I would give anything to have him back in my arms.......

He was such a gentle soul. At such a young age, he could sweep me off my feet with sweet, sweet love and beautiful, brilliant smiles. He made me feel so needed and so loved. I could see in his eyes the comfort and peace I brought him. And it was always very much reciprocated.

There are many times I wish on a star,

and wish so desperately to be where you are.

My love for you lifts me high in the sky,

where I see your smile and your magnificent eyes.

My arms reach out and pull you near,

away from your sadness, away from your fear.

I will forever protect you deep in my heart,

for in my soul, we will never part.

I'm embraced by your love throughout all of my days,

but I have to be honest and wish that you'd stayed.

Stayed in my life and tucked in my arms,

I'm forever sad I couldn't keep you from harm.

I will remember your sweet face forever my love,

and turn it into happiness that shines down from above. (Lenore Davis)

Hunter brought out the very best in me. He made me realize what it was like to live......live with an overwhelming amount of love, live with an overabundance of gratitude and live with a forever appreciation of living life in the moment. We would have missed out on so many cherished memories if we hadn't lived this way. Zen asked if I would forego all of these tears and this deep seeded pain and agony to have not had Hunter in our life at all........and as soul-wrenching as it is......I'd keep our 3 1/2 years with Hunter and I will be forever grateful for the gift of his life. But I am finding it extremely hard to accept that Hunter had a different destiny. And I will always feel that his destiny should have been lived out with me. I wanted to travel through this life with him sweetly by my side. I wanted to see his precious face glancing up at me, and mine beaming down towards him. I wanted to teach him things and show him things and continue to share the bond that we created so intensely. He and Zen were my best friends. I was happiest and most carefree when I had them near, sharing laughter, exploring love and living fearlessly. Always throwing caution to the wind........and never looking back.

I am forever changed as an individual, as a mother and as a wife. Every single part of me has been sweetly enhanced with a tremendous amount of compassion, selflessness, and deep, loving emotions.....all due to our darling lil' love. He's truly now my gift of life and as his mother, I will continue to look to him for guidance of my heart, guidance of my soul and ways to express my everlasting love for my son who has sadly departed, my adoring husband, whom I love with all of my being, and my beautiful son who will soon enter this world and fill my arms with life, with love and with a meaning that we all understand..........

A mother's love.........there's nothing quite like it and nothing will ever compare.